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Concubine (kä?kiubcin), sb. ME. [a. F concubin, concubine:CL.concubinus, concubina, f. con- + cubare.] I. A woman who cohabits with a man without being his wife; a kept mistress. Among polygamous peoples: A >secondary wife=, having a legal status inferior to that of a wife. H2. A male paramour C1540.

                                                                                               ~ Oxford Universal English Dictionary     

 

In the hallway of my house hangs my mother=s wedding portrait from her first marriage. Colorization lifts the ice-blue of her dress from the ethereal-grey tones of the photography of the day. The faintly blonde hair brushes the pearl drops at her ear lobes as she glances just over her shoulder, smiling brightly for the camera. Willowy until her pregnancy when I brought her breasts and hips, her nineteen-year-old self is fragile in brocade and lace.

I took the portrait from Grandmother=s hallway after she died and hung it at the same height in mine. I couldn=t quite picture it any other way. Nevertheless, it is wrong: the portrait of the slender woman in the fairy princess dress should be flanked by bridal pictures of my Aunt Carole and Aunt Karen. The elaborately framed images of the three sisters belong together, the way I saw them, craning my neck up at five, or stopping to gaze for a moment on a visit back from college.